On being depressed and trying to play it cool.
Winter is here. And with it comes the holidays, family gatherings, stock pots full of soup, and soul crushing depression. Everything around you seems to scream happiness and joy — the songs, the decorations, the Hallmark Channel. Be happy, be bright, be merry, they say.
It’s the most wonderful time of year, they say. And you try. You plaster the smile on your face. You show up to the school parties, office parties, and church functions. You do all the things one is supposed to do because you don’t want to be seen as ungrateful. Or unkind. Or a grinch.
And, while you are doing everything that you are supposed to be doing, you feel like you are coming apart at the seams. Like your soul is being sucked down a hopeless drain of despair. Like the world is too loud, and you are too slow.
Instead of being jolly, you are irritable, anxious, apathetic, tired, unfocused, and sad.
You are short tempered with your co-workers and loved ones. Everything they do seems to piss you off. Sleep comes too close to dawn, because your mind is running a million miles a minute — urgently reminding you of all that you have forgotten and all the ways you have failed. And, you’ve forgotten a lot lately. Familiar situations feel extra stressful. Like you are too big and they are too small. All of this leaves you feeling so tired and so HEAVY.
You’ve started ten different things, only to forget where you’re at with each one — finally giving up because caring takes so much energy and you just can’t care any more.
Not caring makes you feel sad. It makes your heart hurt and your eyes fill with tears over the stupidest things. And, maybe worst of all, you feel so alone.
You are not alone. Psychology Today tells us that roughly 10 million people suffer from Seasonal Affective Disorder or SAD. And that’s just what is reported. Many never seek treatment for their depression.
Here’s what you can do:
- Stop kicking your own ass — it doesn’t help.
- Rest. Resting doesn’t mean you are lazy.
- Watch a comedy.
- Decrease your caffeine intake and increase your water intake.
- Share you experience with others. There is strength in numbers.
- Talk to your doctor. Meds can be a godsend.
All that sounds fine and dandy, except it’s just one more thing on the list of things you need to do, and you can barley pick yourself up off the floor. I know. I know.
How about we start here — I’ll sit down on the floor with you, so that you know you’re not alone. Then, maybe the rest won’t feel so hard.
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If you ever feel suicidal, you can talk to someone at the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255 or text The Crisis Text Line at 741741, or dial 911. (These resources apply to the United States, contact your local emergency line for resources in your area.)
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